Why does life have to be so hard?
Why does money have to be the sole rule in your life?
Why did we have to lose Peyton?
Why did Larry have to have the worse preceptor in CRNA school who hated him and got him removed, just months away from graduating?
I feel like we are good people, and I just don't understand why these things keep happening to us! I just want to be home, in my house, with my furniture! I am so sick of traveling and having to uproot my two year old daughter every couple months, and then having to explain to her we have a new house now. She is so confused. I hate to be such a negative nelly on this post. I am just so lost. I used to have such a blessed beautiful faith! I prayed all the time, NEVER missed church, I was always saying a Novena, I never cursed, I felt something at almost every Mass. Now I am overwhelmed, and stress has consumed my life. I feel like I don't have a relationship with God anymore. I feel like I've let Him down, never trusting that he has our life under control. I'm so confused. We just moved lastnight into a newer place than where we were. I like it a lot better and it has a washer and dryer "inside" the unit. We were up till really early this morning moving. Maybe exhaustion has got the best of me.
